I'm high on drugs, and I feel so good

[WORTHAUGERa]

In 4 months the goal is to distilled speech down to a well-organized and coherently readable structure while high as balls so that number one the species useful number two people stop being smart me little discounts and number three I get some practice in.

4 months is a long time. If I had somewhere to go, I would go there but there's nowhere to go and I can't really leave the state and if I can't leave the state why bother going anywhere? I don't know of anyone looking for me or where to go to find anybody so the question is do I dig deep into the Rolodex or do I find new people? Stay with me here: if I start hooking up with new people; I'm gone. Not off planet, well actually maybe and not off grid, but actually maybe and not off of any kind of good thing but yeah maybe actually I might just take a hard turn right and say fuck you. Since it's been done to me, and there's nothing left stopping me, it's something to considered because such opportunities don't appear until it decide that that's possibility and right now the only thing keeping me around is looking forward to see Grapefruit's face when I tell her to (blank) the (blank) (blank) (blank) glass. I really have no plans or destination to go see your mind and it's still a 500 ft distance but one day I'll be happy to explain to her a couple things but there's no real rush for that I don't want to accelerate that process and if she takes her a long time to find me so much the better I have no desire to teach her things or explain things to her or warn her about oncoming missiles... She and I are doing our own things. Well I know what I'm doing I can't speak for her she might be dead. She's probably not dead. I'll be surprised if she died and nobody gave me a call, but maybe that she died recently and we should check with the coroner? Well since she's immortal is really not much point in that but she might be hiding out down there, and then she may or not be concerning yourself with the current calendar, probably not, she doesn't really need to. She doesn't need to be aware that she has done some adjustments to calendar that other people did not and then that may be something she has to look into later that's not my area to say.

I don't know where she is I don't know how to find her don't care fire don't want to contact her don't need to contact her don't believe she needs to contact me and she's been fine on her own before so I don't even need to know why this is even a thing.

I guess she wants to come back? Well I guess somebody else can intercept that and take care of it. Doesn't she have a Dommander? Fucker? Don't you have a Skywalker? I distinctly remember a whole bunch of people flipping around helping this woman, And that's what they should probably go do.

And me while I plan to continue enhancing my talents. I'm not going to lie I like the sound of working with grapefruit but I would need a court order for permission slip and the wherewithal to keep from punching her square in the jaw cuz that's what she does I can tell you some stories I'm not really going to do that I'm not a real but I suspect she'd love to get punched in the jar right now because she's kind of a pain addict and then she probably feels like she deserves it and then that would be some sort of human contact that she might get from me she's got available I don't know exactly what anything I might have her but I know I don't care. And I know that I have no idea where she is and no way to find out, I know the cops know that for sure they're probably laughing her too no one cares where she is. She had a chance for us to Care where she was she going to turn down location sharing when she left that voicemail she could have done a bunch of stuff and now I'm sure somebody actually cares but in my case I I would rather buy some tequila and get some away I actually own a guy there is this there was there is this gentleman he offered me tequila once once this was 1990 yeah 1990 and I took a bit too much of a sip and I knew I would get him back one day because and he was kind of pissy about it like I mean he's like a big coke bottle or Coke glass and I drank about half of it when he wasn't looking I guess he was distracted by some and he was like whoa and I could tell he was looking at me he was like yeah I have not forgotten that tequila in fact I didn't remember it the first time I got a first bottle myself I'm not going to get a tequila that's cute I can wait and you notice that name to kill you tequila tequila you know I might have something to do with the cultural differences cultural distinctions anyway I got this message from this guy and I don't think there's any problem I don't and I got this message well I got this message and I sent a message back and it just like blanked like like faded and I realized it's cuz this this other guy he's coming blocked he's afraid of me on Facebook do anything untoward I wanted to be the right amount of toward and I may have I may have made him shit his pants for maybe I don't think I don't I don't want to post but he is blocking me now and they are spicy enough that I'm not going to read them out loud and I'm not mad like what would I like legit what would I be mad about I don't answer that but I don't have any reason to do anything or anything and I thought I'd just check in and find out that you're blocking me that's cool you know that's flattery and maybe I'll get more of those messages and then hopefully you're not too offended by what I said I don't think I didn't mean to insult you or nothing I didn't mean to cause you any troubles or make you know chill of the goose walking over your grave or something did not mean to do any of that stuff and you know if you don't want to talk about that's fine too it's we can talk about it some other time in the future far-flung or or tomorrow I was hoping to get some sort of a calmer dialogue going a little more chill not Netflix can chill but maybe just a little bit of chill but you seem like a little not chill.


And, I can understand what that's like my man. More after the break

Phase one I look like a complete colossal idiot.
Phase two I look like a colossal completely daft and imbecilic idiot.
Phase 3 my brain is a metallic Colossus and I bring it together.

That's not very accurate it's a little bit trademark but you get the idea. Every time you yokels and vocals complain about how I'm making my post too long or I'm letting it flow through me or I'm doing anything that makes it so you can stick around me what I'm actually doing is planning for the future and learning how to do it correctly. An important part of the process will be to get the voice recognition just so so I know how to use my sentence structure in cadence such that I say, the right time and I don't mess things up with the leading things hanging and I don't get distracted by thinking about Drew Barrymore on my penis I'm not getting too very more worry at baby oh my God Drew Barrymore is does that make grapefruit jealous cuz if that still makes group for jealous that's going to be an issue but if she doesn't give a shit at all especially she's not hearing hopefully she's not listening to anything cuz she's somewhere where she can't hear anything but if she were to hear that if she heard me making noise about Drew Barrymore if she got jealous that would be a sign of pathology or need for a weapon or I'm not sure exactly but when I speak about grapefruit and she's not here she's more than 500 feet away and she fucking well better be because there's no reason to be close to me at all and I don't want to imply that I'm trying to bring this woman closer into my bailiwick however I would I would like to have a conversation with the woman and according to the emergency that is not currently going to happen which is a puzzling situation let me tell you and evidently no direct contact is allowed but passing of messages allowed but apparently some people don't want to do that they have a sensitivities they have selectivities it's a big game of fuck you Charlie played in the dark and people think it's fun.

Now I got a notice that not only what I said grapefruit in this foreign post I also said Charlie in this forum post remember back in the day when she was like okay well I just did that is she going to come kill me now probably not I don't want to contact her saying her fucking kid's name well if she didn't say it was his name it wouldn't matter but it doesn't matter cuz I wasn't referring to the kid Charlie is a different word entirely in that context so she doesn't get to cry wolf then. She probably gets to cry wolf quite a lot but I'm not entering that area right now. I have no desire to bring her on to the lawn to be a hegemo but even if I did it would have to be 500 ft away from the property so it's just not going to happen if she needs a place to stay she screwed cuz she'll have to go somewhere else and she'll have to screw because I'm not going to let her stay here I I don't want to go to jail and then I don't like her enough to move out of my property if she had been nice to me maybe but no I guess you could go out of the hotel I guess you could go fuck herself I don't fucking know how I'm talking to her how am I picking up on this how am I grapefruit has a place that she needs and I'm not buying it I think it's hallucination lettuce couldn't she go to a casino she's got a few casinos I don't know how many casinos she has but you know all of them I guess yeah I'm not too mad at her I don't want to put her shit though I'll tell you that what the fuck is going on I don't have any interest whatsoever. Meanwhile while all y'all are complaining about how it looks like I'm on meth while I'm writing and that's bad you want to Pitchfork what I'm actually doing is practicing and training and distilling down some core skills into my future self that can do this more elegantly. Cuz that's what humans do. And when we find ourselves not doing that I think we should ask yourself why. And this isn't a side this one time I was getting stuff from this guy and he gave me a baggie after I gave him money and he I held up my boots that I was holding by their tabs and I imply that he should put the baggie in the boot without me touching it and the look he gave me was priceless right like he knew and then I knew and like you know we were both dudes and he was like okay and I'm like I wasn't set him up but I just wanted to see if you do that and I took it away okay and then I haven't seen him since last time I saw him he was dressed up the cops uniform making me pee which was pretty cool I never had that experience before and he was clearly making it happen I think some sort of a domination tactic they do to intimidate the movies but I didn't work on me because I just like once I figured out they were actually seriously making me so myself so they can feel good about themselves I just open the floodgates to it I'm not really sure about ways but they may be pee myself because they thought I needed to have a lesson talk to me well I certainly do and I certainly did have to have a lesson talk to me which was what do people think you're doing and how is this helpful? Now I suppose they're not going to tell me, but as a clairvoyant I can probably get past a lot of that. Similarly I could probably get past this no contact stuff if I just talked to grapefruit telepathically but I don't need to talk to her telepathically unless it's to tell her to mind her own goddamn business don't need to do that right now does she have an eagle feathers here no does she have any Raven feathers here probably does she have any I'm not going to go there I don't I don't know where the woman is I don't care where the woman is how does anyone care where she is why would they even matter I guess whatever put on a boat would love to hear that sound recording which I never got. I suppose it might be real important if they actually pick it up, but I don't know if they're going to and then I don't know how important it could be I mean it's just going to be him and her talking about buying a fucking sailboat with my money or some shit I don't know God I'm actually kind of excited because it's them together on the phone at various times when they're speaking in like normal chat mode right I don't think he calls her office or meow she may have thought or somebody may have thought that I thought she was a real officer cuz he said officer meow and we made jokes but that's different from being told right if you assume that's one thing if if she sit down and says this is my badge this is my gun this is what I do with this one it's actually does that great she she didn't do that and then the things that she did do I could go on at length for hours and not days yeah I don't think I'm going to have to do that and then she did mess with a friend of mine oh my goodness, I just don't know I hope not but I definitely do feel good about it because as you know I love court and I fully expect there to be grapes there going to name any names exactly but it's going to be one of those look at the picture things and then they ask you questions I never done this I can't wait I'm going to be on trial and I'll be a witness to my truck it's going to be the full package deal in fucking 4 months and until then I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. I'm not suicidal I'm not homicidal I'm not a danger myself for others I'm not a danger to hockey race I'm not trying I mean I'm fine I'm great I'm a little enraged and then sense that other people doing their thing but that's okay a lot of other people like that too and grapefruit and that oyster raw place is in my mind but I don't know what they're actually doing either I don't want to go up there those people annoy the fuck out of me voice drama play specifically and then grapefruit there's things I should be doing in terms of health I can make a list I just don't have to do these things I could just sit around and wait I don't have a girlfriend or a mommy or encouraging me but I do want to get some hot hot hot hot action so I should probably brush my teeth maybe next week maybe next week and then this week I'll just directly move into the ice skating rink because I can't and I'm only partially joking friends I can fuck up this summer just fine I don't have to do a thing I don't have to improve I don't have to no I don't I don't I play whatever pink tote baby child pic I can do that with whatever for long enough to outlast a few other people who can do that I guess but I don't really know how many I know that I can't find a certain Mr what's his name probably not I feel like something is going on definitely feel like something is going on and something should be going on by this point I don't know why the hell it wouldn't what have we been doing all this time right I mean I didn't know exactly what I was doing but I didn't know that somebody went to the place and talked about a situation and then that somebody didn't bring me cuz I'm not I'm not good enough right I'm not even qualified and that was apparently supposed to be the way it was supposed to be which I thought was stupid I thought I should have been difficult so I think what's going to happen she was going to go there and she's going to fill that thing and then she was at the fly down to a thing and then fill it again which sounds kind of bullshit but it's not entirely bullshit and then when they were trying to scare with it they were scaring with it and they were scaring with it and I said that baby that's bullshit and she's like now you can do it and then I guess she did somebody else and then once again I'm not involved now why star Michaelson is so completely involved from the ways and means of this delightful taxi Hoppers playing hopping life it's it's another it's another show entirely why so delayed but it is one of my favorite songs can't really play right now but and more importantly it is one of my favorite things to do which is to file suit against parties or parties unknown I think it's happening I do I got a hunch it's been talked about I of course wasn't involved because I would just fuck it up go Bears I'm not good for anything I'm barely good enough and make leaves out of tea and I don't think that a certain person I don't think he's he's all that terrified maybe maybe a little little.

If he scared it all he's just terrified he's not going to be a legend, he already is.

Dictated for my Samsung Galaxy a22 /but not read

[Innerreach]

I can understand what that's like my man.

🎂Happy Birthday Eve🎁

[Jackstar]

Including your trousers, if you're strapped for cash.

Actually they usually just rape me right through the Levi's and credit your father's MordorCharge, pitch, so how about you throw in a couple bucks for a couple of eclairs from Polly's Bakes next time? Oh, right: because you are fucking cheap.

[Jackstar]

🎂Happy Birthday Eve🎁

HOTFIX: One (1) bad apple no longer spoils a/ny barrel(s).

[Jackstar]

The Court may have given me too much free time to get my study on.

Hopefully I haven't missed the 2AM free Methylphenidate Marriage Licence. Hopefully I've *BLAM-BLAM-BLAM*

[AZZERAE]

[Jackstar]

I'm not high. I'm going out for some lutefisk--brb.

[AZZERAE]

[Jackstar]

I don't think that the preview screen of a text entry window should completely erase everything I just wrote just because I accidentally slipped the finger down and refresh the page, but it sure as hell did.

probably for the best because it might have been a little too hot for homecoming, it was a retelling of the bear spray incident, which really wasn't that bad, and it's so easily could have been worse and I wish it had, in fact had I gotten there at the exact moment they needed more alcohol, and decided to call me and ask twice, first time I guess I didn't hear me, second time I don't give a shit if they didn't hear me say I don't give a shit click, anyway I can't write this all again it was a good retelling.

I remember she seemed a bit incredulous when they left, like is this really just like getting off work except this isn't my job? Is he sure I'm not going to regret this?

well I'm sure that was November 6th, and then next time I was there was December 22nd, 21st, I forget because I was a place I drove after I politely declined to join the Chesterfield Jockey Club, and decided to be a much better idea to drive home than to drive home because I did not want to go home at that time because I had nothing to say to the person who I had just discovered really in fact actually had been completely mistaken when she told me that I would never see it coming when she (blanked) me up—well, sort of, I actually knew that there's going to be a paraphernalia item in the person's hand when the door opened behind me, and I turned to greet the carrier and was handed an object.

A bear rose. I immediately grabbed it and choked the life out of it with blue spray, took a picture for forensics, and walked off into future history, with guards and defendants of the faith in the crown jumping to their feet and shaking their fists with victorious defense at the notion that I might not see something coming.

And for sure, I never saw that Thing coming at all ever, God help us all, I have prayed to God:

not ever