Arbitrary, idiotic things on your mind. Post 'em.

[AZZERAE]

Don't dare think I like coming to y'all hat in hand.

My laptop is 90% broken, and creating new content is becoming incredibly difficult to do.

I may have to shut my Patreon down and discontinue the Azzcast, till I can buy a new machine.

I get that this is of no interest to you, who told me in no uncertain terms that you don't listen to the show, nor do you intend to.

But this website requires a working computer of some sort to keep it going as well.

So excuse me for trying to scrounge together some coppers for the free loading bottom feeders whose posts I so selflessly fund out of my own shallow pockets.

[AZZERAE]

While you and whoever else are welcome to keep thumbing your nose at me, just remember, no car runs without gas.

And that gas is in short supply, dwindling and dropping below E.

I refuse to go without food or get behind on my rent for some forum where I get told to go fuck myself at every turn.

If you guys see the site go down, please know, I gave everyone ample warning.

[pate]

Don't dare think I like coming to y'all hat in hand.

My laptop is 90% broken, and creating new content is becoming incredibly difficult to do.

I may have to shut my Patreon down and discontinue the Azzcast, till I can buy a new machine.

I get that this is of no interest to you, who told me in no uncertain terms that you don't listen to the show, nor do you intend to.

But this website requires a working computer of some sort to keep it going as well.

So excuse me for trying to scrounge together some coppers for the free loading bottom feeders whose posts I so selflessly fund out of my own shallow pockets.

No worries.  I recently rebuilt an old laptop and put it on LINUX with a new hard-drive:  I now have a spare hard-drive (nothing wrong with it other than it is not a SSD) for a lap-top.  I could wipe the thing and mail it to you if that helps?

I think it is a 750GB or 1TB...  You could use it to do a "clean" install of whatever OS you prefer and save everything on your old one.  I might even have an extra USB IDE/SATA/eSATA thing-a-ma-bob (have to dig around, but pretty sure I got tired of waiting for someone to return my original and bought another...)



Let Me Know.

[Jackstar]

pretty sure I got tired of waiting for someone to return my original and bought another...)

This often works with items that aren't quantumly entangled.

[Jackstar]

Let Me Know.

I have access to a lot of chatter from my position at the center of the panopticon and I don't know exactly at all what anybody thinks they're doing since they don't at all communicate that to me. I don't quite understand why a person's motives are not meant to be discernible I suppose it could be something they're hiding from me but that's not really sensible.

You're only making this a steeper climb.

I'm looking for a breakneck descent. There are a variety of factors and vectors coming to a head at this particular junction. I don't know if the collective lot of you realize, that I may have thought about this before, I and ftp://then these newcomers have come and thought about this and I guess they've come to some sort of conclusion that it's best to keep me in the dark. Well that has certainly worked out well in the past, right?


Blind, unreasoning hatred is so useful this time of day. Also useful is casual and utter indifference as I note that there's a matter of great concern to all of us developing and for some reason I am deemed to be of no value in my opinion.


I just saw a Vengeance Spirit get activated. I thought it would be pleasant to warn anyone who might see what that is. Some of you people got me all wrong. Some of you specifically seem to think that I'm clinging to Grapefruit for dear life and I won't let go.

This is exactly what happened when somebody's child thought that I was being thrown out, that I had to go and stick around too long got to move along, but actually I was completely sick of the situation as I am not quite now but coming up I am not the one who wants to be here or dealing with this stuff.

I don't recognize what's occurring because I am not compatriots or symbatica with any of the current ongoings it seems strange to have so much attention those in the know know that I don't have any current ongoings.

It's perhaps not the best way to go about Thanksgiving circumstances, and I don't actually mind that do it this way but it's going to be disappointing and I want to give you an opportunity to look into that.

 Any event I could describe very specifically what's about to happen here but I don't really have any compulsion to do so although I would like to see nobody get hurt. I'm already saddened that somebody expected that different kind of outcome then there's nothing I don't want to say here, what exactly are we defending what are we going to not breaking silence on what are the secrets what are they?

I'm unclear on who's taking over the operation, and then to what extent is silence the norm and when did that occur did that happen behind the scenes or was that in a memo or was it in pillow talk... It just seems strange that it wasn't mentioned because that's one option of doing things and then I actually not so concerned about certain aspects you might think. And I'm not overly sweating it but just so you know this is not the way to go morning morning.

Additionally this morning I told somebody's relative what the truth was about a certain situation and it took a little while and it probably got blown off because they don't think facts matter unless they come from particular places but in this case it actually really matters a lot I am not going to be having sex with anybody for years because there's not any kind of interest or delight in seeing what happens when everyone loses their collective minds on details that do not matter.

This said explosion of self destructive behavior is not the kind of coincidence you might think it is it's a beginning dance move in a coordinated leap towards joker pops I just happen to know these kind of things it's just something what I do you might want to change your plans in some kind of anything. And everybody doing anything involving me well doing my back for all this time might not be the best thing they might not. I mean do you do it better if I know nothing about it, do you think I could get in the way I mean do you think I want to get away actually no I'm happy with all kinds of stuff you know rapid fashion but the specific energy to keep me in the dark well guess what I'm not in the dark or some stuff I know and stuff that you think I'm going to do I'm not going to do it.


I'd rather go to counseling than have sex. I'd rather tell you all about what's going on than tell you anything else. I think that the emotional impact of the event is going to take place will be much lessened since I don't know what's going on and I prefer anything that I know about to anything I don't go on it's not really useful to punish...


I'm not being punished. I'm sure some people feel like I'm being liberated and freed which is actually true doing it without my oversight or knowledge or anything is very sketchy and makes things very nerve-racking and is going to be I suppose you must know these kind of things you must be in Source world or you want to do things bad for somebody and then that's supposedly harm me?

This is what helped me; knowing where to look when somebody thought that there's going to be something funny coming.

Well I mean you know real well good luck trying to help doesn't look like it's going to be real clever but maybe you got a good idea or something! And then it's a wonderful idea to not tell me anything that's a wonderful idea because... Okay, then, blind unreason I will look into this.

[AZZERAE]

...

Thank you, P8.

I emailed you.

[pate]

Thank you, P8.

I emailed you.

What a wonderful communique that was, thank you.  And no worries.

During this most recent brief hiatus, I had an idea that might generate an income stream for you:

I was thinking that maybe you could set up a special pricing package where users have to pay some amount of $$$ on posts that have 300+ word counts.  Like the first 300 words are free, but after that you have to cough up 1-5 cents a word.  You could probably finance the site entirely through Jackstar posts with that set up?  Nautical Shore, HAH!

To be fair, some of my own posts would exceed that 300 word count:  but I don't think by much.  If that is the case and you adopt this method I would like to set up either Yearly or Quarterly payments so I don't end up doing $1.50 a month transactions with you.  It would be much simpler to just write a whopping $20-30 cheque every couple of months for the extra 400-600 words...

Keep doing you and don't you go changing, Bro!

[Jackstar]

You could probably finance the site entirely through Jackstar posts with that set up? 

A chain is only as strong as its weakest link.

And at the moment the chain of income in my world has no links whatsoever. No one considers how to send it to me. They just consider how to take it from my area.

We got a real confiscation mentality going on here. Now, at one point, I was working on a plan. It involved virtual cooperation.

I received virtually none. Lots of opposition. No statements of support. Demands of my time for the use of others’ goals, yet had no attention paid to any discussion of my list of goals.

Clearly I was not persuasive enough. And now, I don't really have any goals anymore, or a house or a home or a quorum or a support system or a backup plan or a... anything.

So then someone told me to call somebody to give me their number so that I called other people and ask for the number and then get the interact so I didn't do anything. I can sit here. I can afford to wait.

I didn't want to, but somebody else decided that for me. And now, I have decided things for everyone.

I was nervous before, but after time passed and things changed and the understanding became clear of what was really going on, I no longer needed to be ruled by fear. I'm still toying with it it's kind of useful, but realistically I'm not afraid of anything from the situation.

I've been contacted enough times without contacting back that you would be difficult to assume that I'm desperately trying to get around the rules. Quite the contrary. I'm not desperate.

I don't send harassing emails. I send delightfully lovely emails. At least I did. Now I just write them and then don't send them.

It'd be hard to describe that as "contact." It cost to follow a kid around and then to swoop them up as soon as he gets next to his front door and then to have to explain to the judge why this case is being so carefully handled? Well they sure did that.

They sure carefully handled it all right. Kudos.

[Jackstar]

What a wonderful communique that was, thank you.  And no worries.

Maximum cope detected.

[Master Trollda]

5G?

[pate]

A chain is only as strong as its weakest link.

And at the moment the chain of income in my world has no links whatsoever. No one considers how to send it to me. They just consider how to take it from my area.

We got a real confiscation mentality going on here. Now, at one point, I was working on a plan. It involved virtual cooperation.

I received virtually none. Lots of opposition. No statements of support. Demands of my time for the use of others’ goals, yet had no attention paid to any discussion of my list of goals.

Clearly I was not persuasive enough. And now, I don't really have any goals anymore, or a house or a home or a quorum or a support system or a backup plan or a... anything.

So then someone told me to call somebody to give me their number so that I called other people and ask for the number and then get the interact so I didn't do anything. I can sit here. I can afford to wait.

I didn't want to, but somebody else decided that for me. And now, I have decided things for everyone.

I was nervous before, but after time passed and things changed and the understanding became clear of what was really going on, I no longer needed to be ruled by fear. I'm still toying with it it's kind of useful, but realistically I'm not afraid of anything from the situation.

I've been contacted enough times without contacting back that you would be difficult to assume that I'm desperately trying to get around the rules. Quite the contrary. I'm not desperate.

I don't send harassing emails. I send delightfully lovely emails. At least I did. Now I just write them and then don't send them.

It'd be hard to describe that as "contact." It cost to follow a kid around and then to swoop them up as soon as he gets next to his front door and then to have to explain to the judge why this case is being so carefully handled? Well they sure did that.

They sure carefully handled it all right. Kudos.

And you are the
                           

[AC400KICK]

Azzgab is back! Praise Jesus! Praise al Shaitan! Praise MV! Praise Richard Groyper, my baby, and Asuka Langley-kun! Azzarae there too!!

🎆

[Jackstar]

Azzgab is back! Praise Jesus! Praise al Shaitan! Praise MV! Praise Richard Groyper, my baby, and Asuka Langley-kun! Azzarae there too!!

🎆

G-ddam it. I told him to SHUT IT DOWN. Heads will roll over this, Motherfu--*click*



Hi, I am Jackstar. I'm not talking on the phone because I've been doing that entirely too much all goddam day. You People have no idea of the pressures I am under. It's like they're making synthetic diamonds out of my carbon mouthprint and to apply the pressure, they're using my taint. Apparently they never found one that could be suitable for such a purpose, so when they asked, I said, sure, go ahead, what do I care? My entire family has been murdered by my cat, who is actually an alien, who then offered herself up for sacrifice so she could be reborn anew and chase mice through the Blastosphere with the Twelve Ghosts of Michael Aquino... and, look, let's be honest, when I put it that way, wouldn't you go right on ahead and let your own family get murdered too? (I just wish they had started with the whites first.)

Trick question. Good answer. l8r

[Jackstar]

And you are the

S/He/it was an actual on-the-job-bust-you-all-COP, and,

1) s/he/it did not tell me, at all;
2) s/he/it told everyone else that s/he/it had told me;
3) s/he/it picked out another (blank) to swap to Intimate status with, and ALSO did not tell me that;
4) s/he/it told everyone else and hung out all over the world with the other (blank) for months;
5) And then, s/he/it pulled the usual shit that always worked before, and this time... boom, bada-bada boom KA-BOOM. Losing a job is hard... losing a paycheck is harder... losing a job and a paycheck that Certain People & Institutions didn't even know s/he/it had is even harder. Face, meet pavement. Aww, that's too bad.


This chain of horrendously poor decisions... has, let us say, changed the calculus. Recent changes--no doubt some have noticed--have been brought about, largely, because the decision has been made to, shall we say... "clean things up."

Big deal, right? It's huge. There are reasons for these rules, and good reasons at that, and for the longest time, I couldn't figure out what the actual fuck was going on. Learning this news has... oh, I'll just say it: totes saved my fuckin' life. I'd be relentlessly screwed forever otherwise. (It's close in any case. Thanks Ground Crew) It wouldn't be A-IV I'd be looking at, it'd be a whole lot of something else, and any kind of defense would not be an option.

So now, meanwhile, there's a bunch of nerd/dorks ripping through paper, changing names, crossing Ts, dotting Is, and undoing the work of countless dozens of hundreds of man-hours clerical work (I have some kerosene if anyone needs any) and all the combinations on all the gym lockers are being changed, they're ripping up the carpet in the breakfast nook beside the gymnasium, and, MOTHERFUCKER, HEADS HAVE ROLLED, AND WILL CONTINUE TO ROLL, YOU STUPID SCION OF A BARM--*click*


I thought you--all--should know. Cheers, Leaders! SHOUT IT TO THE ALL OF EWE. Don't call it treason... call it, a noble gesture.

[AC400KICK]

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