I just don’t want to have to put you on my ignore list. That would make me sad but if you persist in your TL;DR solipsistic paradigm you’ll leave me no choice. Just imagine the number of alts I’d have to put on that list. 
Are you saying you'd prefer that this not be public or just in a different thread? I don't really feel it's very embarrassing or I'm trying to out you and then there is the matter of the Court investigation of the next 4 months so I figured that one place to put it would be good and then it's not meant to bother you frankly you know I don't see how you're not impressed.
You must be thinking of some kind of trick or something. No, a trick is a thing Alli does for money. What I'm doing is a performance and it's the first and only cuz it's not like I need to talk about how your signaling system has been for years.
What do I even care? It's been this way for years? I just kinda want to get things over with. For example, I still have yet to figure out what it is about me that makes me so unwelcome, and if I don't know before I stop talking to you well I'll be fine I'll just wander away and then just not worry about it cuz apparently something went bad oh my God and then you watching me for a while without me know you're there that's kind of interesting, and then I think there's probably something you think you know about that you know more about than me, and ... Listen Ali bought it too I said something about you and she said that I was going to drive to Idaho and run away with you and I explained to her that I don't fucking know anything about you and you haven't talked to me back and I knew at the time that she could be writing back and forth to you and she didn't twig and she didn't reveal and I guess that's why I don't trust either of you.
You just consumed me and didn't consider yourself with anything further about me, your concerns my feelings stopped and started it would people notice that I was sad, and the main thing I was sad about is that if I told people what you would really done they'd probably be real sad for what happened and then not be happy with you and might help me in some way but I didn't care to do that because I didn't want anybody to know what you were going to figure out one day on your own. I figured to figure out yourself.
That being said I do plan on talking to another people from shorecrest eventually and when I do I don't plan on being caught flat-footed which should really understand things for you God knows who told you that I had killed myself but the way a person presents himself is pretty handy especially since there's well don't worry.
Explain to everybody that I want to make a lazy to feel like shit and that's why I shot up drugs and made sure the rumor spread was going to be acceptable not many people ask about you because they forgotten and when they do ask they'll probably wonder if I haven't answered and I'll be happy to tell them because it's a pretty simple answer.
No one has ever asked. I'm pretty sure I know why. You're too embarrassed to tell anybody that you ever actually liked me, and of course you don't know I'm tainted. That's okay, I was looking for that anyway I was just letting you know that I'm back in the world and I want to know what to tell people about you in case somebody asks. I can do that now since I can have a conversation without asking for breath when I think about various things which is not necessary but it is helpful and it does give you a lot more confidence with somebody who really wasn't very nice to me when she could have been. You seem so disappointed that I wasn't able to give you fucking seed for a baby or whatever the fuck, you know I'm disappointed too if my self wasn't good enough for you just cuz that one reason well then I guess you just do whatever you want have fun if I'm not good okay sure right.
I can see why this gave me some trouble in the day but doesn't give me trouble now. Anyway thanks for telling me that you're gay I understand why you didn't have sex with me cuz you didn't really want to have sex with me. I could tell. For one thing you talked to a whole bunch of other guys, for another you had a bunch of guys tackled me when playing football make it look on accident, and for another you told me you were gay and then had sex with guys and then told me that's why you didn't why no it's not.
Okay have fun with whatever you're doing sounds like a blast. I won't be deep pursuit I'm sure Jason is feeling wonderful at that, lol, I would love to know if you're scared of him and he's virtual signaling or if he actually thinks I'm a threat and he needs to step up I would love to know but I wouldn't believe a fucking word out of either of you. (You didn't believe me.)
