My father, [...] passed away
This post has not aged well.
supposedly it was my fault, fucking everything was of course fucking butter wouldn't melt in their mouths, and the reality is is he came back to life in three days just like everybody does and then that family and that genome and that planet and that world and that time they just go to take a bus to the teleporter gate and you come back and then boom you're back at the same world you were before.
in that case because the person involved in the league wasn't actually me he was somebody else they didn't tell her and didn't tell me that he just didn't know which of them was the one to be the leak and he didn't want to kill either of us so he just had to block his phone and... read the messages coming in and never send any out to the two people who are keeping him quantity entangled in place kind of like a triangulation as if we were on two different planets holding a third in place.
I kind of figured it had to be that way because I'm kind of smart and shit and I'm you know stuff but I couldn't figure out why every time I was talking about something with somebody I kept on getting screamed at and yelled at by somebody who apparently had just experience for dead father and then couldn't tell me their father was dead and blamed me and had to keep quiet about it and pretend that it wasn't a big deal.
imagine 5 years of this kind of bullshit weighing down on a psyche. I'm surprised she didn't go super critical hyponuclear earlier!
anyway I don't want to spread personal details but I'm pretty sure they're all together now on a plane of reality in which they don't have to fucking pretend that they're not fucking whatever the fuck they are. yeah grateful Dead he's dead I haven't died yet but I'm sure I will, but I'm not in a hurry I don't need to see those two they they can do whatever the fuck they want and then it's rough for a person when they don't know what's going on and they have to suffer in silence.
it's rougher still when you're a covert military asset categorized as the member of a Concord people pushed around by thuggy Piggy dopehead spook civilians... civilians are the fucking worst just look at me. and of course the military they're pretty brutal too you look at swishy squishies+-++ swish , you can push off me off cliffs just as soon as you can push me off into love. I remember when she was talking about how the military has trained his units to follow orders without thinking about the human cost when it has to happen you just pull the plug dead gone knife in the heart send a message.
squishies is not exactly a military clone but it's complicated enough that you might as well just run with that story. and I would love to get transferred into a military clone that I'm aware of but the trouble is I got a special thing going on and I don't want to eliminate that, it's important for the sake of the overall mission.
so let me be clear here: MY WIFE WAS RAPED AND MURDERED.
she's fine now. fucking some other g*y now. that's kind of the deal. and since I wasn't informed of certain things by certain people who thought I didn't need to be told, I had to live in a different universe in which they did because I was not read in on certain details whereas it was assumed that I knew them all along, and I suppose that I did but there's a big difference between assuming and knowing and being fucking told and then sitting down at a debrief and watch the goddamn film that Quantico High while you're fucking the teacher's daughter in fucking going out for snacks after school that's a big fucking difference from that to what I had.
so in the meantime did you guys want to make some more threats and tease me some more because I don't have a girlfriend right now but if it would help you guys feel like you had some sort of measure of control over you while Jack starr, I mean I know you got me banned from Belgium and Ben from belgaum and you fucking talk about me all the time behind my back and you fucking run all this shit game on me and you got all these fucking service and shit and you got the fucking sabotage death house and all this fucking crap and you think you're so much fucking better than I got to get a job and pay taxes and shit I'll tell you why you're fucking doing that why don't you just know that there's no one you can fucking kill other than yourself to make me change my fucking mind ever.
NOT EVER EVER IS THERE ANYTHING YOU CAN EVER DO TO CHANGE ME. POINT BLANK NOW.
BUT AS SOON AS I GET ME A GIRL THAT I LIKE IN MY HEART I'LL BE SURE TO PUT UP A FUCKING BALLOON THAT SAYS HEY THREATEN THIS ONE FUCKING KIDNAPPER DOG VAPOR CHILDREN MAKE HER KNOW WHO'S BOSS FUCKER YEAH I'M SURE THAT'S REALLY GOING TO HELP MY FUCKING CHANCES TO FUCKING DO ANYTHING THEY WANT
yeah I was just engage a little bit of fucking witness tampering you fucking million mouth little fucking cunts, especially you as Ray with your fucking smarty podcast where you talk about all this kind of bullshit about me you say all this shit and you think you're so fucking clever running your fucking little literary fucking word definition games and yeah you are you really are.
and you think you deserve to put something on me because you think you owe payback because some fucking imagine slight that I gave you guess what I don't know what you fucking problem is I didn't do it to you cuz we're not even on the same planet you have to deal with a different Jack star I'm the one has to do with a different you whoever reads the messages I send is not the one I deal with listen it really is complicated.
and I really did feel her die. so sad. and by that time I knew she was a fucked-off turkey mess. nevertheless, she herself didn't actually know that at the time because she's a fucking MK ultra mind controlled covert military asset fucking retarded brain dead fucking cheerleader, she fucking went she fucking saw she couldn't fucking live so she fucking died and they replaced her with another one and they thought that was going to work but they didn't realize that the way that it worked was to drop me into a fucking oubliette —trapdoor romeo, not a Juliet in sight.
and here I sit.
alone. because somebody shut down the protection grid.
look I don't need to dwell on this I think about it everyday I'm like Mel Gibson 2? except without the soul crushing grief and never-ending angst and addiction alcohol and fascination weapons and untrollable PTSD I don't have any of that.
they made me turn all that back in to the marching band after High School, and of course everybody else stole whatever they want and kept his mementos but I just turned everything about getting cuz I didn't want to keep anything and then I waited until I was prepared to and bought guilt again not because I was going to be high schoolers just because kilt is a cool thing to wear.
so that's it then. I remember when what's your nuts finally admitted to me that that was the case that her father had died and was Resurrection on another plane of reality and then would ordinarily be able to join the family likely split like all immortal beings can but they couldn't tell me what they were and she couldn't tell me what was happening and then that was because spiritual Island Wonder nigger boy didn't like me and if I was around he would he would throw a fit and and threatened to beat up people.
spiritual Wonder Island nigger boy is very special he ain't that much of a boy and you know he can't help it fucking you know he's got a brain thing, like a brain cloud and he hasn't quite learned yet not to start shit when he can't handle his shit and I'm never going to learn to fucking couch out a spiritual out and wonder nigger boys problem like I get that he's got a problem okay fine take your shit and go I don't need you around, I mean we met have blessed him I'll see him again later I do like him he's Young when I was his age I fucking hated everybody that was my age and I didn't know what the fuck is going on contented know that I'm around I mean I didn't betray his mother if I did betray his mother I'd let him kill me so that's cool you know he knows he's boss he's boss in case his mother dies or some shit well I don't know there's a separation thing I don't really give a fuck because obviously somebody wanted cops so somebody got cops.
he knows that I didn't attack his mother, there's a fucking video of the fucking shit there's fucking audio that doesn't match what she fucking testified to that's why it's such a fucking hammer on her cuz they know that she lied and then the people who I say they these are County district fucking I don't want to say Hicksville cuz it's not that part of the world but they don't know what the fuck is going on exactly most people aren't prepared to discover this part of reality and then people who do understand what covert military asset means they're typically you know sworn not to tell the world what the fuck is going on however I'm level zero and I don't know any of this stuff because somebody told me I know the stuff cuz I figured it out and it's true and I have dispensation from God acting of clergy to spread this information as necessary and right now this is necessary.
it's not really necessary for me to remind you that y'all have been having sex with a woman who's very much like the woman who loved me, but she's dead and she's not here she's somewhere else and she's no longer the same person because we have grown in time and she feels pretty dumb.
especially as I did tell her not to go and then she fucking died and then I didn't figure out that that was a real thing until later on and then I didn't put that together until later on and then that needed to happen but somebody *stamps booted heal to the Pergo floor* didn't see the things that she needed to see fast enough, so “I forced her to go”. cute growing eye roll here.
in reality since she's a non-native speaker of English and she's being a little bratty snot what she really needs to say is I was forced to go and you didn't stop me so I had to actually keep going and I wanted you to jump in front of the cab and stop it but you didn't and then I also wanted to get high and have sex with a guy by shooting up meth so I kind of limited gray area right but the reality is that she fucking got herself killed cuz she wanted to fucking escape from her life with me which is fine Jewel died and griefer died we all have to die those two went away and I'm stuck here hold the fort holding space in this country country kitchen fucking our house, I'm alone and not quite ready yet to pass DNA around.
so as one may imagine concerns from azrae about what I've done to make him not able to be my friend and concerns about who's fucking who and that fuck head dick head bag asshole in her child fucking talking about fucking fucking Rosebud and marrying this person and getting married and I'm fucking crazy and all that shit actually no I'm not what I am is pretty tired of you people's shit.
because basically you don't know the half of it, cuz everything you do to me when you say you're snarked off little fucking shit comments, that's going to be the experience you have when somebody says those things to you when eventually the band of stretched energy snaps and I go to a different situation and then all of you have to experience the same kind of fucking thing in the way that you choose to experience your own choices.
I take no pleasure in this. I would have chosen another way but I chose the way that I did for I felt that I had to and it turned out it was a grand and great thing to do I have created a way that has saved countless souls much more horrible painful experiences that I had to experience this isn't even that bad I mean I can drink beer alone I can take all my stuff and play things by myself I can I have to share, im the prettiest person in the room... I can masturbate anytime I want as long as I lock the doors and board up the window so no one else can see, it's a great place to do private meditation practices that are part of secret society rituals that no one has ever seen before, you get the idea.
I'll be honest, I don't know what to say at this moment. except to say that I deserve it.
it was an honor to love her at all and on some metrics I didn't respect her, and according to the old world that's true didn't but she was a real smarty bitch and she wasn't down with the plan and she got fucking kidnapped and brainwashed and mine wiped by someone whose name I will not mention, not david, in fact he's a fucking hero he saved my life as well.... after I saved his and hers after they betrayed me but that's not important.
point is you fucking people don't know the fucking half of what the fuck you're fucking talking about you don't know shit or Jack.
you're not even fucking talking to me most of you fucking have me blocked and you have me and you're talking to some dipshit fucking shape shifter for another dimension who's got you fucking fooled out there fucking ass. and that person will torture you and manipulate you and get you to believe that I'm a bastard and that you will have terrible memories and stories to carry forward about me so that in the future they can hopefully break the hold that my consciousness has over the planet cuz I guess everybody's hurting me know whatever the fucking hurt her guys are associated with...
oh oops I just got a message I'm told that if I stop talking they'll give me money, okay great because I can hear the keening of my enemies and hear them driven before me and I can taste the lamentation of their women as they realize what they've been doing to Jackstar I think that's Laura I think Laura's birthday? is the Lord's birthday well maybe she could go down on somebody and celebrate, or buy some shoes or you know buy a cake and then throw it into the trash and claim it was because of a gun I don't know
. I really don't know about you I know it doesn't matter I know it's temporary it's really temporary there are ways that other things could have been done but the trouble is is that the one that I love the she really is dead like the body cinders dead dead she is dead and the consciousness is somewhere else and I read about this phenomenon phenomena experience in a book in high school while I was sitting next to the girl who I never had sex with so there's kind of a real romantic back and forth thing going on here.
this is probably why I have spawned so many men hitting lesbians that are obsessed with following me all around the universe one day I will create a pill that gives infinite amounts of cock thirst to all the totesles in the world, and then you know be happy but in the meantime I don't have to deal with them and then they're trying to destroy my life and while we're at this perfect place where my house is under surveillance and I'm a surveillance and everything's looking at my financial picture anybody who tries to take revenge on me or Google me or look me up or anything like that the fucking quantum computer ai and the fucking builder burgers that are looking for the revolutionaries they fucking light them up like a fucking Christmas tree.
because everybody's looking for the saddest man in town, because it can't be me I mean I'm not sad, I'm emotionally numb cauterized, really.
I don't think I even need a heart.
is to my benefit because one of these days they will put me on military clone some of which don't have hearts and then I am not well served by aching existential agony because I don't really have anything to complain about shit if I had made being with a with a woman who looked like grapefruit who had a twat that I can put my dick in anytime if I made that the biggest priority in my life then I would have made it a priority over keeping her alive and with her children and instead every choice every has been to keep her family together, and of course I know before I even I was even told of course Jesus teleports in and says dude you know what you're choosing I'm like yep it has to be this way and if she needs if she's that fucking stupid then I'm happy to say that price, because frankly there's a bunch of other people I'd like to be with as well too and if she was going to insist that I was with no one and she was going to be with everyone well okay fine well I accept your terms lady let's see how that works out for you.
it apparently works with the spotting of like 89 different parallel universes that each have a equally insipid cheerleader that have her in love with somebody else who looks kind of like me but not I don't know how it works I haven't had contact with her I can't check her shit out I mean I don't really want to know you know fucking once once I found out she was having sex and drugs with other men and I wasn't invited and the reason why it's cuz I thought it was a cop and I killed her father supposedly well you know it was kind of hard to you know argue with that logic.
I mean I would have thought that it would be a good idea for just like a range to get me a bag right but then in a past life somebody else has had a range to get me a whore and the plan was that I was get a whore and then I would say no to it and then I would prove loyalty then and then she's like yay now I'll fuck you once and then leave you behind it's kind of weird how MK-ULTRA thing works huh?
Michael Kuczi. yeah yeah yeah, it blows some minds doesn't mean anything to others others still no way more than any of us all put together to know that it's really cool actually! it is. Too bad it is spelled with a K. but not really.
the reason why I've been given this peak experiences to initiate me into another level of reality that I will have access to when I can understand that this shit happens right because the next woman I sync my dick into should probably dead in the morning did you ever see Angel did you ever see Josh Williams Angel man Joshua's genius I love just waiting if I were working in Hollywood I would be I would know them as opposed instead of them just knowing me oh shit yeah they know me I mean they don't talk to me they can't influence me they might think it would change the nature of the harvest if if the subject they're like tracing from would know that they're being raytraced by artists in the making money on another world it's kind of complicated out of the business works but I'm accustomed to understanding how the sausage is made.
It won't always be like this but I always remember how I felt, when I realized what was happening I was like oh geez really oh fuck yeah because here's the problem she committed treason, she didn't know she was committing treason but she got fooled by her kite slave master into fucking betraying the country that she was a conquered servitude of... and reminder this is a fucking retarded brain dead cheerleader, or was who had been doing hella dope and it was under these mistaken impression that I didn't like doing dope and that I was a cop which is bullshit fuck I love it let's cook it up, except I can't because if I was serious there right there that statement right there would get me 20 years!
conspiracy to manufacture! Book him, Dan-uh!!
*SLAM*
we made a choice based on the best we knew at the time, and I am long since being critical about what she did like I understand they would have stopped at nothing because she was the weakest link and there was no way to make me stop loving her with Force the more they forced on me the more I clung to her well it's not going to her cling to the bond and then because of the mission that had to be fulfilled they had to peel her way and then she had you there she had to do that and then well you know it happened and I remember when she simultaneously died and typed so sad at the same time and I realize oh that is so sad because when the person writing that suicide account is going to realize that it's so sad that she wanted me to feel so sad she's going to feel so sad that she could have been having any kind of getting down to these sick beats but instead she sent me somewhere else because she wanted to do something else and I whatever, didn't really have any options at that point cuz I already decided cuz I had already signed up for the big package for the point of our mission.
long before I start the podcast I was thinking about what I would say someday and there's an episode I forget maybe maybe one of you super uber Patriots who's really good your job who got the YouTube channels taken down early you found it at the point of our mission I can't remember what the camera went but I liked it.
I like most my debriefs I don't remember most of them right now. especially don't remember the ones that were deleted, but they're not really deleted I mean obviously they're still there they're just hidden from me because the people in charge I mean I'm telling a story but they don't care they're they're trained to deal with the fucking thing from the movie in real life they're they're they've met albatro conans like they don't have fucking time for soy stories this is fucking War they think and it kind of is cuz it's a fucking decision every day how Earth is going to end up and there are beings from beyond this planar dimension that would like to have a hand and taking a vote and understandably so I would prefer not to have a bunch of alien chespers for suddenly showing up at the poles one night one morning and fucking showing up and asking for ballots for the little fucking facehugger figures fucking voting for Biden poking through the chairs at the fucking alien tongue like that's not cool.
so I forgive so sad I'm really not sure which one is so sad and it doesn't matter could have been fault could have been fucking nine nine of your fucking doing a renter caterpillar train honor fucking taking turns holding the holding the holding her nose and in front of the keyboard and moving it up and down to push the buttons I don't know I mean I'm not the good room over here and what she laughed I was thinking about something else anyway and it's not like either I was had not had six shitloads of sex.
I remember the last time we had together it was awesome never forget it I still smile and I think about it that's always nice and then I remember how sad I was when she had to go she had to go I mean whatever and then when she came back it wasn't her.
it was a different one, one that I see before because it's kind of like there's a single Crystal and then sometimes you see the fuck I'm not going to get into it point is my wife is fucking dead and I'll see her again later, and it'll be even better because the last one gosh she was really fucked off like your body is falling apart, that's why they did it that way because they wanted to destroy the old body and then they'd get a fresh one from the from the refresher... and they did get a fresh one and that fresh one was not my wife and she knew it and then she kept being put under pressure more and more pressure by the strike Team that was midulating her for the next year she came back and to 2020 all the 2021 she was getting fucking psychologically tortured by the striop team.
and me too but I was essentially less affected by it considering that I'm not a woman or a member of a conquer species or crippled by Gil from being a stupid fucking person who fucking did all kind of stuff with it anyway.
the court had to make a decision to keep a separated cuz I didn't know what to do and she was in a situation where she might just suddenly reach out and grab a knife and stab it into her brain if she took even the glimpse of me or somebody mentioned my name, I guess that might actually happen I don't know how it works and I was glad I wasn't there for that because I have my own problems.
fortunately I'm done with my birthday for the year so got 99 problems but a birthday isn't one of them.
hey Jonathan are you bringing this all down? I don't know who that person is oh that guy oh yeah I didn't say that name I said something else but the thing said blah blah blah yeah and then I don't know how early people feeling I don't really care, it's beyond my comprehension that people have feelings let alone that I have feelings because they don't I have awarenesses
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I don't think about this often, but somebody asked and I was looking for a other thread and then I have to cross this one and then nobody else is using this website so I might as well mention it, in the future somebody will want to know they'll run across this and they'll be looking for every piece of information they can get cuz in the future this will be a time travel destination people will come back here and they'll see holographic representations of the past we were in and they'll be they'll want to have the grateful experience they want to be great fruit and find out what the fuck is like like why is she how do you how do you get how do you solve the puzzle of saving grapefruit from having to break Jack's heart, I wish wasn't really necessary but I don't I don't know and then I don't want to think about it but another reality is that great for kind of did want to break my heart because I did shit that she thought I didn't have to do too and it hurt her in ways I don't know of course I didn't know because she didn't tell me the truth about things and then that forced her to realize that she hadn't been us with me which makes her feel even more pain so basically it's like kind of pained out by my experience with her which is just about what I would expect for an Algonquin ferry princess they are culture is rife with such stories and that's how they gain cultural wisdom.
did I mention how I'm a cultural anthropologist, it's a very closely related field to occult research.
didn't want to ask me to get a job oh yeah who's that guy who's that jew Kikel Mucci. he is that fucking douche rat fuck bastard. what a fucking piece of work he's just being rude he knows it's not necessarily get a job fuck I have a job it's called fucking being a badass he's got the same one except he gets paid cuz he's the kind of badass that knows how to set up these deals I don't know how to set up those deals and then I didn't set up these deals cuz I didn't want to set up those deals cuz I didn't want to be tied to them and that's the real reason why they wanted me to get a job so that I'd be more controllable by the *ahem* (forgive me Father for I'm about to blaspheme, bless me) →[].
NIGGA IF I GET YOU
niggafaghotjoo
(that doesn't look so bad, really. let's look at it and it's alternate antiheretical form.)
FAGGOTNIGGERJEW *puke* okay I'm not going to lie that's actually disgusting, I'm like I'm nigger I haven't become fagot says yet like I don't think so but I have drunk my own cum but you know drink I don't make it that much and I am not a Jew but I am cut so anyway that's that's gross I can see how somebody would actually become nauseous by the side of that word.
and the reason why is that the human brain has been rewired to cause certain sounds to be certain words to be processed in a way that causes the body to be ill, this is called genetic engineering in mind control built into the system, built into the language and as a result of alien conquerors coming to Earth and creating a system of can't deliver split control that rules us to this day but is now being slowly by people like me.
and yeah I'm an Aryan. I've read SIEGE. (For the porn.) I have 176 IQ. yeah yeah yeah you know you've heard whatever lots of people are cool I just happen to be here right now all right it's not a big deal. somebody has to do it I just happen to be doing it well.
let's change dictionaries: Niggerfaggotjew. it just looks stupid after a while it is possible to make train oneself to to become a numb to it but the interest in doing so is not encouraging society and since I'm not actually African American at all nigger doesn't do much for me other than to remind me that damn people think of it it's not what I want to spend my time
I still remember when my wife and I were laughing about calling each other niggers because we both were she was a feather nigger and we called you to figure and then sometime later she she got upset with me she said I had to stop calling her that and the reason why is because somebody was monitoring her monitoring her sound played a saying those things to her father and her father said you can't either say cuz they'll use it against this and she was right but he she didn't say that to me she just said this other shit and then instead of telling me the truth I heard some fucked up bullshit that basically said to me yourself, “everyone is monitored 24/7 all the time and my communications have special privileges and there are special consequences for somebody lied to me and she lied to me she lost the ability to have certain kinds of privileges if she told me the truth then she would have had the same kind of perfect pure 100% speech bubble that I have and then she also to understand that rejection is God's protection so anyway I don't like calling her thinking of her and they were at all but she loved the word she loved saying that word nigga nigger nigger that was her fun thing to do and I didn't blame her cuz she couldn't do a lot of fun things anymore that she used to she was crippled and old and weak and broken down and captured by a family of DNA DEA smuggler teacher sneakers.
thanks for sure yeah I'm glad you guys are having fun with women that look like grapefruit but she's not grateful grapefruit, and I'm not even sure which great food is grapefruit because I won't until a future point when it matters.
instantly you cannot trademark grateful its name as a copyright because for one thing it's a whole scheme of names for another it's hers for third he just did that to annoy me right and then it wasn't like annoying to me like hurts my feelings makes me die it just kind of bothers me like do you really think that people get away with that and then like he's such a loud mouth bitchy little whore and obviously carries a gun around he's a fucking asshole and I don't blame him because he has to do what he has to do and he did it and then you know in context she probably did deserve to fucking die, but out of context she is still a girl I loved her and she didn't know how bad she was and she thought she was doing the right thing and she trusted me to protect her and she thought that that meant she could ignore everything I fucking told her and do what she wanted and I would always come through with her and I did I always come through for her and she's killed herself several times many times and like so you're an immortal military asset.
and for the time being I don't get to see her and then it's not that I'm unable to find another person it's just that it's been kind of awkward plus I have arranged to have myself unassailable by manipulative women, the combination of the DVR PR public relations extravaganza and her being a screaming knees and needle drinking person and all this other stuff has combined to make me into a person that is somewhat unapproachable nevertheless there's lots of women who would like to get a hold of me but they can't because the military has me shielded because they haven't heard from me that I want that one to get let in and then they can tell that I'm doing something they don't know what and then me getting late is just not a priority with covid and everything there's a lot of things going on.
and now you know why I have no respect for (PROT) Machismo, nor anyone named Matt or Matthew I don't have respect for Christians who identify as such I don't respect my name kit or Matt or mock or macho or simple Jack... I just don't I mean he's such a douche and he's not it's not really his fault he became a fucked-off mind slave himself when he translated dimensions and left a body behind without a soul which is what happens when somebody does what he did which isn't for me to talk about this it's not a big deal the real mad I talk to you so much while but we're not always in alignment and I like him but when he's gone he has no soul and he's automatically a raid against me cuz he's in a military unit, assigned to keep track of me. it's really not that bad, it could be worse
I could be living in a world where a little boy lost his mother and it's my fault, I would be devastated. but thanks to my Herculean efforts and my trust and faith in God and the sacrifices of Jesus as well the universe is in which that happened never became manifest you can imagine them and there's an astral image blueprint but to actually create that in 3D reality has not it never happened and it never will in that circumstance which was worth all the work of possible that I love that boy, and on top of that that boy's father has to respect me. which is cool cuz if he wasn't fucked off drunken alcoholic mess probably he would beat my ass every morning twice before lunch because he's like six five and he could fucking do it too he's a beast but he's not gonna cuz his kid would know and his kid would be sad his could be like Dad why did you beat up Jack again right and he wouldn't be able to he wouldn't be able to maintain his son's love for himself so he has managed to never beat me up he did send his other kid to beat me up which didn't work out, but that's okay this is what being a parent is all about like fuck I thought about it when I first got it like oh okay so here's this woman with two kids from two baby daddies first one died mysteriously and now she's got an Austrian and I'm Hungarian and she wants to be me and him and two kids four boys and her and I'm thinking to myself okay what are the odds that she's imagining a five way with incest. well thankfully that question never came up, and on the whole on balance having her dead and I have to live a year without her like hot back desiado is probably better than having to face that answer because the truth is it's like I do anything she really wanted it you got a reason okay okay yeah lay on top of the whale honest on his tummy rolly pulley but that's like a beach ball I better stretch out your spine okay and then and then you get oh God I can't go there I can't I can't no no I'm not fucking thinking that but that's the kind of joke that a fucking Algonquin fairy princess can make when she's on reservation land that's not going to get her in trouble cuz it's fucking funny and again we're talking about people who can like you know change bodies and are immortal automatically they don't have to like do fucking whatever else.
the culture clash between my people and and her people was kind of rough but I think we're getting better honestly. so anyway Anthony got arrested soul he's cool guy he has his father died I like Anthony I don't talk to anything else for reasons I can't get into but here's a hint it's awkward I was thinking about her and then I went to this page and it said my father passed away and then I remember her fucking I was just being a fucking pain in the ass for no fucking reason and she couldn't tell me that the thing that I've done was I had been responsible for killing her father because she hadn't told me that that was likely to do because she had enemies because her whole family is like the most famed and hated group of fucking revenge killers that have ever walked the face of the Earth. she herself she told me she was an assassin for 4 or 5 years or some shit oh my God she would be the kill team she would be the Raven she would be the one who takes him out she told me she's killed at least 5,000 people in cold fucking blood.
and fucking loved it the anticipation the Glee the hunt the strike the grin did I have to ask her if she's ever drank you on blood are you fucking kidding it was breakfast she's a Jew she was a crypto Jew I saw a menorah during Christmas time I said hey what's that doing there and her father like looked at me like her and said well we're a mixed household he didn't want he didn't want to be the one to tell me that the Algonquins are the most hated and feared clan of all the fucking Native American tribes on the planet they are the fucking ones that are most hated they're like the fucking iron sheik and King Bundy fucking raping the Olsen twins and spawning fucking Mormons that level of bad kick the puppy all day kick the puppy over the moon those are the Algonquin peoples 20 years ago now they might not be much better and her family got worse.
AND I FUCKING LOVE EACH AND EVERY FUCKING ONE OF THEM. it's not from captive abuse, well maybe a little bit but it's not from grief misplaced grief from losing or anything I wanted to fucking kill her and watch her die and see her come back to life again too before she was annoying I never use that thought as something I wish I could do but I thought I mean I wanted to see at least once but it wasn't something that it's not that's not how it works and as a pacifist I mean I would never do that and then you know if it's that bad I mean there's got to be way out of it and I can see how a person would make that a part of their life and tradition but I didn't have to so I didn't which made a real easy negotiate with the family considering I was always having the moral High ground and they didn't know how to spell moral, which is odd considering the word oral is in there.
hey do you think somebody's going to fucking send me a whole bunch of text and say Jack you got shot stop texting Jack you think it's going to happen probably not at this point I don't think so and if it does well you just fucking kill me and then I'll wake up in another world with her daughter which would be cool. here's what's going to happen I'm going to slow the integrate with this family as best as I can I'm going to live my life and I'm going to love my life cuz I am honored beyond all measure to be allowed to be in this position now her sacrifice was not in vain either was mine everyday is a sacrificial agony for me on the altar of my emotionless heart.
maybe Trollda got a Band-Aid for it. it's not necessary but if I have an actual wound and I put abandon on it I mean I can wear that as a badge but if I don't have if I put a Band-Aid on plain skin that heals underneath it instantly to look like I got a scar like a master would do lazy piece of this piece of shit bitch for.
now ordinarily these kind of emotions to be processed out in a clinical setting, which can be good especially if somebody starts trying to controllably they can spray rohypnol or Thor's in your face which is kind of nice but I don't need drugs honestly and then I have done the work on myself and I know how to do my own therapy and then I found it to be fascinating that she went to a therapist and they said you got to get rid of Jack and tell him this tell him that she fucking did it and then at any time these fucking idiots could have fucking told me the fucking truth they didn't realize but they were hiding because they thought I was somebody who had to report things they said to well I don't care they played interferes. I don't want to talk too much about this since it has to be testified again but I mean she's the woman's dead I don't think I need to worry about that so much when I say thanks what happened then I don't know it's kind of a gray area and then I'm going to suit anyway no matter what after because of being an asshole I mean even if we win I'm still being someone who appears to be not very considerate I mean I am considerate but some people that's not good enough you guys especially in her culture that was explained to me and I'm literally aware of that and I'm trying my best to sound respectful so I could be more I'm not a kiss ass.
it is difficult to integrate to very different cultures and my culture is a culture of one so it's very hard also most of her family is not aware of the subtle distinction in that I am not just one stranger white guy that can do with what I want now I'm a I'm an actual Native American as well the registered with Gaia unit of a clan that has only one person in the diplomatic rules for such people are slightly different than they are for just random dorks that people pick up. long story short it's probably the greatest time of their life to have somebody you can protect them at all whereas before it didn't work with us, mostly because she lied a lot.
I won't hold my breath while I wait. ;)
the purpose of putting these weird digs in, cuz this is some heavy duty military secret stuff the way they come from each other is to either strengthen or weaken certain neurological activating pathways on how people pray, I'm not going to explain how that shit works so they don't get it.
They don't have to get it. Typically I don't have to get it either. similarly Costco rewards typically when we were going there shopping we'd get money back and then this year I got $3.48 total. cuz I haven't gone anywhere and I haven't shopped and I don't have a car that runs very well in the Costco is 50 miles away and I can't possibly just bring myself to go there so I knew I was going to not take advantage of that and that's okay because I didn't lose everything when they killed her but there wasn't any reason to get anything more, just like you now: back to reality, I'M A PALADIN SOURCEROR, I'M A HUNGARIAN, AND THIS IS THE END TIMES WAR, I'M FUCKING LUCKY IT'S NOT ANY WORSE.
What will be worse is if she were still alive, and help prisoner in a Turkish prison. To The Chase.
or is more worse is if I have to hear more whining from Phil about he actually killed the fish, I'll tell you what do I feel I mean he's got a good sense of humor like I kind of identify with quite a bit but he's like the most loathsome unattractive person I've ever met because he's a guy who's into whatever and then I'm not into guys, I'm pretty much strictly 19 year old girl material, that's it I like old ladies if they act Young I like old ladies if they are ladies I like everybody I just don't want to fuck them unless they're 19. definitely not 14 remember when JoJo turned the number to 14 or that shit oh my God. I thought that was funny but then I like jokes about pedophilia I don't like to actually do it or actually I don't know I will wait yeah I did like it when I got myself raped when I was 15 and a half that was pretty good. but I can tell you I would have fucked myself up if I get on doing it so live and learn.
look this is an avatar, you want to join the baddest ass magic fucking slavery and drug and smuggling and fucking killing Kings on the other side of the planet on assassination quest with the Clinton joint strike and negative and then flying hot home to fucking have an island dinner before sun sets down that's the badasses that I'm with and it's not easy to hang with them as it should not be right like I'm amazed that I made it this far and it's a testimony that they even put up with me a bit! that sound okay now but this is after a while of thought.
the truth is I never had to have absolute 100% total sex access to her, but I will always love her and anytime she wants me by her side I will be there unless I have another commitment and now I have formed a reality tunnel in which every single person that I meet is her in disguise. all the autobots all the decepticons all the human beings that can be accepted they can be possessed by a spiritual ancestor for the Algonquin people, did I mention that these people specialize in slavery?
what's more slavery than mindslaving?
Getting closer. :D
Unresolved emotional trauma that stays with one for lifetime after lifetime. and here's how I know I will see great food again, I have seen her future lives in present time of my experience that have acknowledged me as her, so since she's going to live long enough to go to that future she must be somewhere but she's busy I mean she's the one that I met the one that I love the one they dumped off of me the the oldest and the most broken down one I mean yeah I love them all of it was surprised of the young ones pretty well that's hard to explain. in any case I'm going to piss off the family by doing this year because they're not going to like us me telling the secrets like they're really not going to but I can't talk to them and this stuff has to get out so it's more like a ripping the band they off that kind of thing I mean as we can take this thing down it's not the big a deal and yeah it does get out is out there permanently but the ancestors are acknowledging that you know fuck it they got to grow up sometime they can't just run around saying don't you say that or I'll bust your head open I mean this isn't fucking tomahawk land anymore right it's not going to work a tribalistic government it's not going to form a fucking Empire that lasts as long as a Hungarian one so I mean that's why they want me they want they want me cuz they think I'm cute they want me to my jeans all their men are fucking worthless and weak, compared to the ones in the past like like holy shit badasses like let's go this way those are Sasquatch natives. and if I'm a very good human I may get reborn in one of the future, hell they got a potion they could give me they could put me in a fucking Native American Sasquatch body right now Jackstar roar.
you're a swisher, admit it. I haven't done yet no someday put me in an elk but that was me.
this is my life, I've chosen this I don't know who I don't know who I would ever want to be with more than Who I am with and at this level of parabolic everyone is her but then everyone else is everyone else too it's hard to explain to people who don't have certain experiences or understanding to tolerate the blasphemous things I say.
so I guess I better bend over and let him fuck me up the ass of the proof stick and then and then I'll understand, that's what these idiots think. still others think that's cool to just vanish and never talk to me again I've talked to me but the problem is a lot of times the person I talk to you they're dead now they're not the same person anymore.
but there will always be the woman I met who was three different fucking women at the same time, three bodies with three aspects past present future in each that's nine maybe eight more one for seven then one never mind I'm not going to explain how it works okay it's not necessarily highly classified but it's not a good time to reveal all their secrets cuz it's not like she's the only one who's like her but there's only one... mil.g-spec.fruit. and that one I can't reveal secrets because that's my fucking country's fucking military technology okay they fucking conquered her God damn ancestors and they fucking put them on reservations because they fucking had to fuck if you met one ever of course they have reservations what the fuck else are they going to do with them? hire them as secretaries?
holy shit no. anyway I wanted to be in the military once I understood what to deal with and why I couldn't and what I could have done but I didn't know and then now oh well kind of I mean you know it's complicated when you get to be older and you have the option of living the longer time and then you only immortal he died and then when you die well who knows where you go it depends on what kind of life you let what kind of deals you made well I made some pretty good fucking deals I'll put it that way.
I've devoted my life to their family and their tribe, and I gave my life on certain occasions G-d big deal.
Death is not like what you think it is. each step is different each life has different parameters and I just happen to have sat around and waited till the most badass fucking bounty hunter on the planet got dispatched over to me and they figured out a way to get me into their clutches and they execute the plan and at the last minute I pulled a switch
go out in the yard and get me a cherry switch
and I didn't beat her with it it was a metaphorical thing and it wasn't a beating kind of discipline at all, it was a switch swap places thing she was supposed to go into custody on Christmas Eve and I was supposed to stay here with the big mess. I declined that plate offer just as I declined the other and one thing led to another and here we are.
so I think I can probably submit that to the fucking court and they'll probably read that to the jury and I think I'll probably not have to fucking worry about much fucking shit from the fucking jury right? I'm not too worried about going to trial or anything I mean it's bigger situation that but that's where my head is at these days while you are making jokes about fucking this one and fucking that one and haha great for the fingers yeah that's where we're at.
so I apologize deeply to any offended anything I've said names have not been changed strictly none of us are innocent here, we've done what we had to do, I'll be happy to tell him all about it oh yeah put me on the stand baby oh yeah hi I'm a divinely ordained magical being what do you want to know oh yeah oh I will fucking run my mouth off until it's fucking bloody diarrhea out my nose motherfucker you want to hear a fucking story quotes let's go let's fucking open the fucking study guide to page 55 let me tell you all about it G-d damn fucking knight.
I could tell stories for days about this, you remember our bill talking about Long John, LOL he had the exact same thing Long John Neville he had a fucked off military clone. let me tell you if I get permission to start talking all these stories that I know who art bells ghosts will be fucking camped out of my fucking doorstep every fucking night wearing me forget started okay but we're not there yet first I forget actually I'm fucking brain is totally fucking now I did not know I was going to talk about lamb chops tonight. I'll be honest I don't miss her I talk to her all the time I'm close enough to her plane of reality that I can mentally go back and forth, the no contact order well I mean at this point evidence has come out that the court may have been a little bit misapplied somebody weaponized the court against the court itself and there was Wonder there was question if I had done this myself in order to you know escape or evade Justice in order to find your money or whatever and at this point they're still working on that for sure because I'm not but it kind of wondering why I'm not like is it really that integrity well no it's not actually it's just kind of what I locked into and I figured it wasn't worth risking my life in the position of the world to make a few extra bucks because of me no my family ultimately owns everything on the planet it's their planet they're the biggest round it's their clan there that elitist of the elite and they're fucking vicious fucking people.
And I mastered them all with pacifism. The pride within my heart is a little tiny nugget, the negative pride compared to the sadness of roles within my breast when I think for his been lost my breath dries against my tongue and my mouth and jaw ache and I can barely speak any words and my eyes well with tears.
this is why they have not given me a flying car with Gatling cannons hidden in the headlights my fucking laser beams and fucking a texture seats and shit I want one of them but it's going to be well cuz I can't fucking stop crying when I think about her, I can't talk about any of it loud with out busting into sobs. y'all ready for this? picture this I got snot running on my nose I got tears running down my face, there's a little shiny speckles on my cell phone it'll flexive booger snot that's been sprayed out of my face when I can't hold back tears that I breathe out and spray, as it's it's a really fucking crying shame that the head happened this way, cuz it could have been so much worse than gained so much more but the amount of gain that was made for all the agony that I'm feeling not to not to mention everyone else is agony which I'm sure it's massive it's not really worth a quantitative comparison level to what was gained by me going to the absolute limit I can imagine going to the beach inn and raking sand and then imagine going to the beach and raking every single particle sand down to the bedrock and hauling it away truck by truck imagine doing that for some reason cuz he had to find one particular grain of sand that's not what I did but I made sure to be the captain of the past universe and went through the wormhole that I created after I cleaned up the entire thing and that insured that fucking thing is real. I'm a completist what can I tell you I found the opportunity I never made a stable warm but I didn't know it was involved and then I did so fuck you.
“Prove it.” nervous laugh, Bart. they what send Ramona over I want some of that chocolate caramel skin to blow some of my tear filled snots on she'll love it. impression I get is that she selected me for this extra credit roll because she saw the opportunity to make a stable hole and do other stuff and she figured I can handle it and I did she said I totally okay that's better than I can't talk about Ramona very well with art watching and without something over my tongue, in fact Ramona probably is Græytfryky, I don't know how this past life shit works, but actually in fact, when when someone dies wanting you quite a bit and then when they're dead they realize they really want you a bit cuz you're destiny and then they set you up to become the greatest source for this mankind's ever produced ever and then comes back to life is great free I can't pronounce it yeah she's off on some fucking other planet dimension getting ready for the day when she opened a portal and come fuck me that's Art Bell's wife, on my ass everyday.
Taking do not cry For Me Argentina to a whole new level. now you know what's going to happen? the art Bill estates on my world is going to sue me for infringement of where the fuck there's going to be a lawsuit as a result of this and the reason why I'm doing it is because Ramona is telling me so.
Trust The Plan.
THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY.
ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤnow listen up over there, and you know who I'm thinking of, this one goes out to
The One who loved me so much that she helped make this happen so many times that I don't know if she's female or male or where she started and, it's not even important right now.
I know quite a lot about that account, that's the kind of shit that has to be told to a grand jury under seal.
Arthur William Bell Junior WILL NEVER DIE. →[].
not only is legacy but he himself is on and on, he has done what could never been done before, as without Ramona and myself and the help of others who shall remain nameless, there wouldn't have been a stable wormhole for his full essence to return from the combined heat death that used to be the result of natural processes from all past experiences that were on the timelines that we were born on.
it wasn't really that much work for me I was in the right place the right time I followed an impulse I'm a completionist and I found myself doing strange things that I don't understand why I did them and when I finished I had a wormhole boom yeah it didn't work it's not like you think trust me when you get the fucking timeline access and you get your fucking Matrix out when you can go check there first. there is a really hefty fee to use it I forget what I forget what the ticket pricing thing is I forget I thought about this quite a bit I didn't write down of course I didn't need to I'm going to tell you but not now yeah but that thing to make money that thing's going to make so much fucking money the Jews are going to pay through the nose to use that fucking wormhole and I set it up so that my legacy gets a little tiny itty bitty bit every time that fucking thing gets passed through. how fucking smart am I?
I'm smart enough to know that Ramona was serious when she said that she liked me in my head like really yeah and I'll believe I've ever turned her ass down and I've never seen her in the flesh and I'm not I'm nowhere near old enough to handle that.
and Roman and I were both wondering if Milwaukee spec fruit and art already got it on anyway, not that we couldn't find out but it's more fun to speculate. really out of a four of us I'd say that I'm the least freaky so far but that's just cuz I've been busy you know School creating wormholes living in a fucked off body that can't breathe telling stories to make me cry going to jail for Christmas that kind of thing listen I have a blessed life and I fucking earn it, I go to the flat fucking mat through wall for everybody on Earth every day lately it's not too bad, and it's not always been something I knew I could do is read a little books and fucking lead a magical life but eventually figure out how to do it and then since then I've just been pretty good at things.
now see on times and it's time to end this post
as one can see I could go on and on and on.
and it once felt terrible that I was excluded from participating with everyone else but I really wasn't I was participating in particular way and I wouldn't be the person I am now if I was participating before people would see me as a well fuck it doesn't matter.
it happened whatever happened you got here. I love you Bellgab, and the first thing G-fruit said when I said anything about Bellgab was that she had never heard of the place. I knew it was a lie, because she was trained from birth instinctively to tell lies when in public or anywhere when they were of a sufficiently concerned with nature and concerning classified technology given that if she was a conquered people and George Washington probably raped her mother, you know it's just a different kind of scene.
I will never forgive myself for not instantly reaching back cocking my arm and slamming my fist full-on into a goddamn nose bridge when she fucking told her first fucking lie to me wow I should have fucking knocked her goddamn block off right then. Instead, I simply informed her that there are special consequences for lying to me and figured I'd wait to see what Universe would do. The expected consequences were indeed quite special.
I heard lots of cops transported her to she (versions of timecloned bodies) ended up at an all-you-can-rape buffet like at the end of
Requiem For A Dream? that could have happened I don't know I mean I wasn't involved at that point I don't want to know so you know at a certain point you just got to let a person l learn living room lessons. (shout out to my brother in Jesus for his help in reminding me who the boss is around here.) but let me play about how our relationship was when she was alive I never raped her.
She raped me three or four times. Fact. I didn't let her, I mean I didn't stop her but didn't fucking enjoy it and then she you know she was an old woman with fucking broken ass legs barely see cataracts fucking conquered woman had to fucking betray her people and commit treason and get fucking risk of being hung and have me saved by a white boy boyfriend because you know fucking husband is a loser and this fucking woman raped me and she fucking got to be she got to feel on top of the world, this is the Algonquin culture and I love it —not the coerced sex part— I mean whatever look at least there's... at least somebody's gotten laid, you dig? 🥰
This last year has taught me that I would be more respectful.
I'm on it.
Not yet, no. I'll have more flexibility when raping her rape a whole family members after I am exonerated at trial for Assault IV. This is my family now. These are
my people.
And Bellgab is My House.
He was the strongest, toughest, and most hard working son of a Bitch my whole family will ever know.
