I remember when I used to love to write.
I remember when I left paying my bills! I still do love paying them but I have temporarily froze in my own finances just to feel like I'm keeping up with the rest of the crowd, word on the street is is that nobody's got any money and everybody has to work hard and you're all slaves and there's no food while I'm living alone in a 2000 square foot farmhouse with three bedrooms and four acres and all the comforts of homes I could possibly want except for a sink that hasn't been cleaned out in 7 months other than that though it's pretty good, nevertheless I've still decided to stop paying my bills just because I'm basically just that salty about it.
See that was easy, I don't even need to be high on drugs, like Azzerae, to be able to write like that, or even better than me, I'll be honest, I've lost a lot of my
gravitas, I can just decide that I feel like showing off in front of somebody and then out comes the 19-year-old... Well, no maybe I was a little completely giving up on life at that point, more like the 17 year old. I think he thought he still had some fire in him, I wonder if he'll ever
get a life someday.
It was so easy back then.
I need a third surgery and I've been holding off until I feel like I know at least one other person on the planet who won't simply be pretending to be non-hostile and then come over and steal all my shit immediately once I become incapacitated.
I remember when I had maybe three or four people that I had their phone number to and I know where their house was and if I perhaps started to stop by I wouldn't absolutely have to call the first but I would anyway cuz I'm that kind of person but now I've literally got no one in the entire world... except this website... and this house... and every few days some new Fed calls me somehow and asks another few questions pretending my friend... oh yeah, and I didn't
want to complete
The Great Work, so fuck all y'all I just totally did it, as soon as I got an opportunity to! BOOM! Like a boss.
